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My bed. I used to be in love with you. We’d spend hours together on Saturday morning ignoring the world outside. When I didn’t feel well, when I was sad, when I was lonely, you were always there for me. We’d dream of distant places and lost loves, of adventure and chocolate! Before we’d even said goodbye for the day, I’d miss you. I would spend my waking hours longing for the moment when you’d embrace me again.

We were perfect for each other.

But I’ve changed, and it’s tearing me apart.

When I look at you, I desperately want it to be like it once was. Just you and me. You’ve got to believe me. Every night I hope that tonight will be like it once was, but it never is.

I wake up in the middle of the night and I can’t get back to sleep, and though you are holding me, it doesn’t feel right. My body aches in places because it’s not fitting right, so I toss and turn. The blankets are twisted around me and I feel trapped.

Or worse, I’m so blessed hot I feel like I’m going to melt right through you until I’m only a puddle underneath you. As if catching on fire during the day isn’t enough. And you! You just lie there. You promise escape and sweet release, but instead I find myself caught in a nightmare in the dark. Alone.

I used to consider the alarm clock a jealous whore because it was always trying to break us up. But lately, I find myself awake and waiting for it to sing to me. I stay up too late, avoiding that moment when bliss becomes Blah.  In the morning, I cling to you until the last second, but I don’t find the joy in our time together.

I’m sorry.

Colin Powell says “A dream doesn’t become a reality through magic; it takes sweat, determination and hard work”. I’ve got the sweat covered, and I’m determined and willing to make us work again. Are you willing to work hard to get us back to where we once were, because I still love you, you know. In fact, let’s start today. I’m committed and willing to do whatever it takes, day and night, all weekend long. Our relationship means that much to me. I want to sleep with you tonight and wake up next to you. I want to cuddle with you right now. What do you say?

Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it had to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together

Happy Together, The Turtles, Written by Alan Gordon, Garry Bonner • Copyright © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Carlin America Inc, BMG Rights Management US, LLC