“Therefore, send not to know. For whom the bell tolls. It tolls for thee.” – John Donne
In my case, it tolled for me!
It was just after midnight and the rain had started in earnest. The wind lashed it against the windows. I was having trouble settling to sleep. And as it cleared, and I drifted off, I heard the familiar pitter-patter of little feet and the door swinging open. It was Little Guy in tears because he was also struggling to sleep. I encouraged him to crawl in and watch the lightning fade off in the distance.
I woke at 2:00 in the morning when Little Guy yelped in his sleep and kicked me in the shin. Then his nose started whistling, a steady serenade that kept me awake, so I moved to the couch.
I woke again at 5:30 when someone ventured to the bathroom, though I had rolled over a few times in between, having woken from twisted dreams. I won’t share what they were because I don’t want to be committed. It was then that I noticed the solitary and mournful clang of a single note, the repetitive and solemn clang as the morning breeze brushed past the wind chimes outside.
“Therefore, send not to know. For whom the bell tolls…”
I knew I should get up, that the singular refrain would keep dripping into my brain like water torture, but like my cat many years, I dug in my claws. Big Guy, as a toddler, used to try to pull the cushion out from under the cat while she napped, and she would make every effort to remain on her perch for as long as possible. I held on to my cushion too.
But eventually, I picked up my bed and walked into Little Guy’s room and crawled into the bottom bunk. First I turned off the ceiling fan and unplugged the night light. I can’t sleep in a room with a running ceiling fan and I have difficulty sleeping in a bottom bunk. I wake up kicking and screaming, thinking someone is standing over me. And as I drifted off to sleep once again, I heard a bell…
Little Guy woke me at 6:30…just to let me know he went to sleep afterall. So much for sleeping on my vacation. I hate playing musical beds – I never win!