It’s the last day of the month already – a month I will never get back! My weight has gone up, not down. My exercise schedule is collecting dust on the shelf. My hair is seriously in need of help. And I think my motivation has gone on vacation without me!
I was just sitting down to write my blog when I got a phone call from a friend…could I meet for coffee (neither of us drinks coffee)? He had that “we need to talk” kind of tone in his voice, so I rushed out the door (I did remember to brush my hair first). He did have “we need to talk” kind of news – not something horrendous like a broken marriage or a serious illness, but news that nonetheless breaks my heart. I am not at liberty to say what the news was, but it involves change – and not the “though it’s painful, it’s really a good thing” kind of change.
I know that change is inevitable, and I suppose life would be boring if it stayed static. We certainly wouldn’t grow character, or learn from our mistakes. But sometimes I wish the good things stayed the same for a little while longer.
I came home from the meeting and cried, then prayed…sort of like David in the Psalms. He often asked hard questions and wasn’t afraid to tell God “it’s not fair”! This situation is not fair! But I know from experience and from scripture that God is overseeing it all, and He sees the bigger picture, where I cannot. I just have to keep looking to Him.
I wish I could end this blog on a happier note, but life isn’t all rainbows and sunshine. Emotionally I feel like I’ve been hit by a Mac truck. I certainly trust that this situation will have a good end, even though I can’t see it now, and it may be a long time in coming. Someone wise said, “Everything will be okay in the end. If it isn’t okay, it’s not the end”!